Day ＃136 : I Love dady to the fullest

Dady was in hospital and he was alone. I can't deny that despite all my busy day today, he never left my thought even a second.

I was thinking about going or not. Mom told me to go and see dady there but i was having a dilema. I mean, to go or not to go. I do really want to go but i don't life an easy-going life, like 'to have all i wanted to be mine' including 'do what i really wanted to do', and that includes car and so on. besides having a lot of work to do or not having a car to go, i face a financial problem, well i can say, it's serious. :-) If i rent a car today then i won't have money to eat tomorrow. That's how i live my life.

However, i have a few very understanding people in my life . Abby my bestfriend who stay along with me, through bad and goods and sure Kiokie too. Dad, mom, ujie, iba, pepem, welder those are my important nakama who live with me through sweet and pain. My Jadelittle sister and her entire family, those are my supporter. I can't thank them enough for keep believing me.

That sound pathetic isit? I know. I shouldn't pitied myself but to continue living and never underestimate my Savior, Helper, Friend, Father , Everything - Jesus.

And i received dady's sms asking me to buy him Kuih. That bring me to deep empathy. And i killed those excuses and i am going to meet him. What happen today will happen. And what happen tomorrow , I'll let God handle everything.

And i'm going to face the pain in order to taste the sweet. I want to experience the pain and the hard time. That's how i grow. :-)

Dear God, please take care of us. Amen!

Day ＃129 : Gardening

Dear diary,
I have fun gardening with family today. But above all, i am able to complete today because i witnessed the love of Jesus in my family early in the morning through our family morning devotion. Altough not all of us was sitting there to sing and listen to God's words and pray together but i felt so much relief . I can say that the morning devotion is a way to start a day wholeheartedly!

And back to gardening, we (mom, dad, iba, pepem and me) were there doing our work while chit chatting :-) I was admiring dady because in his current condition, he still try to stand up and support the family to the fullest. He tried to give his best like gardening, drove us to the garden etc. But, i am more concern to his condition and i'd like if he stay and watch us. That would be enough.

so the gardening end up well and we will soon plant paddy together with the Pelayanan Wanita team.

It will be tough in front because we aren't strong without dady's help but this is the only way for us to continue living :-)

May the Lord see us and answer to our needs according to His wonderful plan.

By the way, due to the excess sunlight *maybe* i am having fever now and feel so sleepy after taking medication :-)

Oyasumi Nasai :-)

Mr. Camera ;

Day ＃128 : I Love You Daddy

We all attended the church service today , wearing our wonderful cloth, put on our best attire, do the best on our grooming, go with our Dmax, discussed the Sabbath School in our own class, going back home, took our lunch, chit chatting, drew a dream house, sung a lot of song together, listened to dad lesson from the bible , prayed together , took a bath and goin to bed.

Everything happen today was awesome and i can't explain the happiness in it. Spending time with family was the happiest feeling ever ! By the way, i begin to afraid when dad said he is going to die . Man, i didn't say a word, put on a calm face meanwhile i can feel my heart beat faster and faster and faster. I act like i don't care but truth is i was breathing heavily and shudder all over my body.

I can tell that i am so much afraid from my trembling body. I prayed to God and ask for His guidance and all i have to do is to put faith on Him, FULLY !

I told him, 'I still want to see dady tomorrow morning on our family morning's worship'.

And non-stop tears flew. I mean it !

Dad said "Oyo, u still need to do a lot of piano practice"

I will dady. I love You. please be strong. :'(