I was loosing my track and i didn't count my blessings everyday . I know that well. But this is not the reason i am writing today. Its because i felt the pain along my body and it made me hard to walk easily nor move a bit.
Last morning, i was meditating then fell asleep again. I only realize i got a few calls from my boyfriend telling me about something bad happening to our other boyfriend. To be frank , that friend of ours was possessed - according to them. So, that boyfriend of mine asked me to call anyone from the church to come and do something to M (Not a real name). Well i panicked a while because our pastor was in Thailand for this time being. The only person comes to my mind was 'Pr. Justin Ginsud' my f.dady, Elder Faderate - one of the elder in the church and Pr. Helmy Hazel, my super best friend.
Pr justin was in Beaufort, Pr. Helmy was in Thailand too, so i called Eld. Faderate. He asked me to called any other elder to go with him and it ended up - Me going with them, without enough preparation. At first, i was terrified. But that boyfriend of mine told me that he is fine and we just need to come and pray for Him, then it was a relief.
So we arrived and i was talking with all the boyfriend there, at Male's hostel in IPG Kampus Keningau. Finally i got to meet with M and he looks exactly fine. The eldest doing a little talk with him before we went to the room to pray with him. So, Elder Faderate ask the four of us to do a chain prayer. We were standing in a circle when we start the chain prayer when suddenly M acting weird again.
When i notice the change in him, i tried to hold him. I really though i can comfort him by that, well, another thing happen! He kicked the table and with an unbelievable strength he crashed himself on his bed. I was looking at the others and they didn't do anything. Elder Faderate was praying with all his heart that time and i was holding him (M). The devil or whatever it is that possessed him might get angry that he lift me with his one bare hand and throw me away to the other side of his bed. Maaaannnn, that was so hurt. i mean, my head, my leg and my back was crash to the side of the cupboard. I wanted to cry, really. That was really a PAIN but i don't have any time to myself. I need to pray. i need to do something. I fall on my knees and i started calling Jesus's name . M was laughing at me, real bad. And i was terrified. I lose my track with Jesus a while, then i panicking. I felt real small. I felt real something. I can't fight that devil. I know i can't fight them. I should've been prepared for those kind of thing. I should've cleanse myself with Jesus blood through full acceptance of Jesus. But sadly, i didn't. I should've keep myself clean so He can come into me easily :(
I was trembeling and i was seeking a comfort. At least a comfort to face that. the was 6 man holding M in his room , a strong men yet he still can move. I saw elder Faderate was drabbled by his sweat. He is locking the possible movement M can make. He was using his entire strength, sitting above M and at the same time try not to hurt him. He was speaking continuosly, trying to calm M but M become more and more aggresive. Elder Vincent was reading the bible, using every words from Jesus to comfort M but M was laughing and teasing them.
I was afraid, the situation become more and more. I have no choice and the only person i know can calm me that moment was Yoyong. Man, i knew he might be attending church service that time, but i really needs him. So, i give him a call and thank God he was there and he calmed me a bit.
Elder Faderate asked me to bring some of the church member to help us there, so i drove to church and picked some of the church member to stay together with us there. Thank God he managed to calm down a bit later and he was sleeping so soundly.
What an experience ! It took me some time to realize that devil is something we can't play with. :( SCARY ! I couldn't afford to attend the Sabbath School discussion that morning and i just manage to calm myself to attend the devine service and i was real late. Later then i realized that my whole body was in pain, probably because i crashed on the cupboard :( Tomorrow will be a Basic Drill practice for Reg 11 Pathfinders. I don't know if i still can move my body tomorrow, but i will try my best. Tq Yong for the prayer. I am depending on that.
Phew!
XoXo
