Day ＃91

It seems that i can't find a sentence or at least a word to explain about today. It was another ordinary friday but attached by a lot of new thing.

So i began my day with a quick bath. Right after i finished my bath, the water stopped. Thanks to my little buddy who have been a lot of help lately, waking me up every morning. Well, i get used to it for almost five and half year here in campus, No water supplies, blackout, cafe's problem and bla bla bla. And it seems that it wasn't make full sense by now.

So i arrived school and directly find my beloved student to do some therapy session with them. They are having a lot of problem about reading. Despite of their split and different personality, they are
actually that kind of good students. However, they can't read. They just know the letters name but they can't determine the alphabet sound especially the vowels. Not a single sound when i first met them last January. It was hard to deal with this kind of student actually because i have to consider their feeling like : I must make them feel like they're worth the learning process, I must make them believe in self, I must make them know that it's not that they can't read like their peers, they just need an extra hard work and so on. Oh, they are just children around 8 & 9 and they don't know about feeling (s)? False dearie. People should be treated right since born and if not, at least there are teachers in school who can make that a little bit right. That 'little bit' will make difference.

So to speak, i had a conversation with Jade yesterday and today about this matter too. Because i was assigned to do something with some year 6 students with a difficulties in reading and writing. I was asking Jade about her expectation to the teacher that'll teach her if she face the same situation. And she answer 'I also donooo oh. because i didn't walk that way before. i read since kindergarten' . and so do i. I read since 4 years old. That brought us to a deep conversation then. I myself want to know, i mean REALLY want tl know about their feeling. Year six student is about entering the early teens phase and i think i shouldn't treat them the way i treat the year 2 & 3 students. What should i do now?? Mind if someone give me any suggestion?

That thing keep stirring in my mind today. A Lot.

Another thing is : I once again be an MC of SK Banjar's Staff Party. I don't recall my first day being an MC that i realized i conducted that job a lot lately. By the way, thank God for the ability. I think i just discover that.

Tonight, i wasn't there where i supposed to be every weekend. Time swiftly passed by and now every single thing start changing. The change, Most of them, i don't like it. If i can, i just want to stop them all. Everything! But i know every change happens to make me realize or learn something new. Maybe today i was crying towards something i don't like. But who knows, tomorrow it'll provide a beautiful bloom of Sakura flower? Who knows right? It happens. I know.

Dad was sick and i am worried. I really don't know what to do. But i am taking Kiokie's advice in : Put another strength in your heart, oyo. It will be just fine.
Kiokie, if you happens to read this, that you are eager to find my blog, i want you to know that i am so blessed to have a wonderful friend like you. I can't thank you enough!

＃I just realize that there's a lot of blessing i got behind every sorrows. Thank You dear Lord. Happy Sabbath!