#32 :
I was counting my days towards my final exam for this semester. I don't believe it going to en end soon. REAL SOON. It's awesome to realize that i was staying tuned here for about five years. MANNNNN that was too long ! More awesome to realize that I've passed through the high and low of my life.
Someone said this to me today :
"So, when will you open your heart for me"
Ok, that question was a real battle for me. Why? I never thought myself to be in a relationship for this time being. I mean, i don't trust myself or put myself to be in a relationship now. I still don't have a strong explanation or reason for every question that will follow later. So, to answer this kind of question is kinda HARD for me. What did i say?
"Hey, i think i am not ready yet"
Conversation goes on ---
"Why? I am not handsome as your ex...?"
Duh !
"=.=. I haven't start my world tour. How can i be in a relationship? LOL"
"I can bring you go all over the world la~"
"Yeah, i know you will. But i kinda like to do it myself for now"
"Well then, tell me when you're ready ..."
"You know, there's a lot of awesome , beautiful and high class women out there. I can help you if you want"
"Like?"
*I mentioned 3 names and suggest 1*
"Oh, they'll got their boyfie already~"
"Oh, the last one doesn't have. She's got all that CHARMS every man looking forward too"
...... ....................... silence.......................
"U also hebat mah. Humble and classy"
"Yala tu. Go sleep"
The conversation ended there because he really fall asleep that evening ^_____^
I spend the whole day reading about photography and do some Photoshop touch to the photos i took last week.
I began to regret the time i wasted before. I regret that i didn't start everything before. I regret everything. I prayed, prayed and prayed.
I had a conversation with Boy about the preparation. He gave a lot of opinion and i kind of trusting him, only him and i am really thankful for having his shoulder to lean on that time.
#33
I woke up this morning and began to message all my fellow friend over region 11. I start by telling them what to prepare and what will they do for the PF camp. What activities will they participate etc. I was telling every leader from every club to be strong. I told them that i got their back and i'll help them prepare as much as i can. I was telling them that we're not going to compete nor winning the competition but we are going to create something for the youth!
I don't know where did i find those courage to tell them all the bla bla bla , but i liked myself for being like that. I know i am confused and i don't know how can i manage my time wisely later but i am sure God is here and there with me and us all the time.
I went to library, asked God for His wisdom and i draft out every possible thing that we need and i see that the main problem will be the FINANCIAL Problem. I want to ask our Region's Leader but he is kinda busy. Look like i need to take that responsibility for this camping. And again, i am sure God will take care of me. I Am REALLY SURE of that.
"I am going forward, For the sake of our Youth!" i sent that to Boy this morning.
Eyster and I went to the church this evening. It was raining heavily and no one attend the church services. So , we went to the church by the way to practice a song for her next special song. I recorded our last practice for tonight and i am glad to share it with you . (If you happen to read my blog)
Title : Renew Me (Avalon)
Vocal : Eyster
Piano : Me
#34
I was online-ing and chatting all day long with my friends. And Kiokie was a great great friend to talk with. I was laughing all day long because of his stupid jokes. haha. Thank you Kiokie. You really made up my day :)
I was planning to study but end up singing with eyster. It was long ago since i played guitar while singing and to my surprise, i have forgotten a little bit of the guitar chords. I mean, i confused it with Ukulele's chord. NAH ! By the way, Eyster and i have something in our mind --- it's all about music.
I was planning to study but end up singing with eyster. It was long ago since i played guitar while singing and to my surprise, i have forgotten a little bit of the guitar chords. I mean, i confused it with Ukulele's chord. NAH ! By the way, Eyster and i have something in our mind --- it's all about music.
I visited my darling, Gee in the hospital this evening after the Taklimat Exam. I was really afraid to drive a manual car actually but Abby was doing great that she push me to drive that manual car this evening. I was sweating heavily at first and i was merely causing an accident =,= By the way, i managed to control my nervousness and we drove smoothly and safe back to IPG. Congratulation Gee for delivering that very very cute baby boy. :*
*My language is bad. Probably because i haven't read for too long* uhuu. Need to study , Study, Study !
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