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Sunday, 21 April 2013

Day #13 : It's on the verge of waving.


Busy day again - i was reporting this on sunday .

It was Thursday morning and i need to take care of the 3 Jauhari for the first 3, teaching and learning period. It was the last day for me to come to their class before i wave that unexplained goodbye. I promised them that i'll show them the photos that we've been through along 3 months together. I remember that morning when Mr. Pyan was helping me to borrow the school's LCD for the photo slides later. Unfortunately, the front socket was damaged and the wire wasn't that long to connect the LCD to the back socket. 

So, while we are waiting for the extension, i was saying this to them 'so what are we gonna do today?' with super-no-idea-face. That conversation brings us to keep talking and sharing and etc. I hate to tell them that today was my last period in school with them. Well, i told them by the way. Then, the children welcomed my incomplete speech by saying 'Teacher, let's make a simple party for your farewell’. Actually, i really don't believe the words come from them. It's not that i don't believe them to do that but i don't expect that much. So i was asking them over and over again to make sure either they want or do not want to do that so-called-farewell-party. They were getting bored i thought, that they are start talking with each other again and that well-managed class turn to night's market. 

I was trying to warn them to keep their voice low but it didn't work out well. At the same time i was holding the long rattan, i held it since i start talking to the class actually. So, I hit the table and sure it produces a loud sound and it scared the students - Thank God they stop talking for a while.  But a little while later some of the student talks a bit, some of them talk out loud (like seriously!). I was staring at them like a pregnant lion but they seems didn't notice it except Azhar. So, Azhar was yelling to the class to let them shut their mouth. It seems work out for a while but then the other try to copy Azhar. Booommmm - the class turned opposite again. 

I was so serious back then and little by little the students keep their voice low and start whispering and staring at me scarily. Ahhh, it's a lot easier now! So, i continue the discussion about what and how will we do the farewell party tomorrow. The discussion went on smoothly until one of them shouted 'Chystelle,bring Squirrel' (as yesterday they are talking about what did they ate at home and Chystelle said 'squirrel' to Mr.Pyan) and the whole class laughing including me. I just can't control it. I   mean i can't imagine someones eating squirrel. 

When i laughed together, the whole class now looking at me and conversation like 'teacher, Ari eats elephant' 'Azhar eats mouse' and everything related to what they eat come out. I knew they did that because they really think the 'food(s) thingy would make me laugh and stop yelling or hit the table or so on. I just answer everything this time until i am really running out of idea. So, there's a lot of time left and i am just too lazy to teach the syllabus. Luckily Mr Pyan comes up with the idea, asking them to write everything they like or dislike about us along the three month. 

I am just about to sit and relax when i heard 'Teacher, there's a pig!' and the whole class were laughing out loud again. I saw Flegon and Mc Roy were laughing and 'holding' their tummy with their face red.They are pointing at the front door and can't finish their words.  I wonder what made them really-really laugh to cry. When i turned to the direction i burst to laugh too. It's Adim, my remedy student. He was there watching us with his face stick to the class's mirror and his nose and mouth was pushed upright. Well the view was really funny, plus his teeth look bigger probably because of the mirror refraction. Adim didn't mind the situation that he continues with the pose and smile which made us laugh harder. Well, the situation is simple and it might looks like 'nothing-funny' but the situation was different when it includes children. Their purity and immaturity made me always adore them, made me always want to share their inner self - laughing and playing all the time like nothing is wrong. Children can be translated to H.A.P.P.I.N.E.S.S too! 

*Adim was a remedy student but he is very active, fluent in speaking, funny and attractive of course. If you got a chance to look at him once , you won't see him as a remedy student. He is very bright though.*

So, i got letter(s) from them and it triggers my mixed feeling again. Sayings like teacher, although you're far from us, we always love you', 'thank you teacher for teaching me about health and way to take care of myself', 'can i follow you back?' and another letter that made me laugh was 'i prayed you will find your spouse asap!' Now i understand how expensive a treasure like C.H.I.L.D.R.E.N. was.

The next thing that we did was watching all the photos, laughing at their own silliness and watching movie. By the way, we didn't finish that movie and we went together to the canteen. The students was following me from behind and by my side(s) made me feel like a mom with dozen of child. They ask me to spend them but i explained them slowly that i don't have that much money to pay for their foods. I mean, it's 31 pupils and i only have 15.00 on my wallet. The students didn't believe it and begin to ask my salary per month and bla3. I explained them that i am still a student like them, that i need a lot of money to study too, that i don't have a monthly salary etc briefly. I found myself explaining thing so serious and thank God, they finally understand. Child, if i have 60 ringgit on my pocket i will spend all of you! 

Along the way to canteen, i was touched with Sofian's story. He said that he is poor than me. He told me that 2 years ago the soto's price is just 30 cent but now it's 50 cent. So, his parents don't have that enough money to spend his food at school. I can imagine that he went to school looking at his friends eating and enjoying food(s) and he is there swallowing his saliva and imagining it to be a delicious food. Then, he needs to stay at school until late evening to attend the dance's practice. I am secretly give him my respect for being so strong and to be able to stand firm alone and different from his friends. I want to give him food so badly but i am afraid the other will say these and those and sulking over Sofian. My heart hurts as i let him go just like that. I was imagining that there'll be a small person with magic will find him and give him what he wants n need like what we saw in the movies. It's a myth, i know, but i am glad that there's someone up there called God The Almighty who will protect and watch over him! Although i didn't help him today, i promise i will help the kind(s) to change their life.

Lesson Learned.

Mr. Camera
*later*

XoXo

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