Day #235 : Last Day In IPG

So here comes the feeling of last day in IPG.
I don't know what to express actually.
I saw my friends took pictures, taking something as 'memory', leaving something, hugging, crying etc.
But i keep silent , laying here in my precious room and bed.
What did i feel actually?
I don't know.
I met Mira - a friend i used to call 'kurus' since 5 years before and we bowed a promise to keep on our shape , or in the other word - not getting fat anymore.
People are waving goodbye(s) but i prefer to locked myself in the room.
I don't want to say goodbye. I don't want anyone notice me here and hug me or say goodbye to me.
I don't want.
I prefer to go silently without anyone notice my presence.
I even plan to hide myself / at least sleep so no one will find me and say goodbye to me...

sigh.

Lot of things happen.
This is the place i grew up.
This is the place i learned a lot - mentally, emotionally, i understood true love then i learned to let go although my heart didn't accept , i learned to smile through circumstance, i get stronger, i was betrayed, i learn to keep living in a harmony etc etc etc....

Now that i finally will leave the place that i really wanted to leave before...
People packed up their things and start moving,
I am still laying with my unpacked things.

This feeling is _)(*&^%$!@#$%^*&()

Sigh. Sigh. Sigh.
I wonder what will bring me in the future.
I wonder how tomorrow will look alike.
I wonder ...

See You All Again.
Thank You IPG Kampus Keningau for helping me to grow up A LOT. REALLY A LOT !!!!!!!

XoXo

Day #229 : Collaboration and Judging

My piano teacher asked us (the students) to gather and learn from each other.

One of us was in grade 7.

She'll be taking her exam this November 30, 2013.

So, teacher asked her to play in front of us and judge each of the piece she played.

Well, i was judging from my point of view - i mean, the words i uttered sound like judging but actually i am not. I was telling myself about --- if i was in her place, i should improve in these aspects bla3.

It was fun.

&

I learned a lot tonight.

Thank you teacher.

Someday I'll make myself proud of the change and struggle i made.

#Thesis undone yet . I wonder when will i enjoy the no thesis moment.

XoXo

Day #220 : Thesis

... I was in the library all day long, settling my thesis...

... In the end, i was left alone behind, all my batch-mate already get their printed thesis ready, while i am still struggling and doing my best, as best as i can, to achieve my highest might [or to satisfied one's heart?] Or maybe both ...

Just let it be :)

XoXo