Day #295 : Now i am sure that although you left me, you're still here with me.

Yesterday, i remember me walking in the rain from the place i stay to Keningau Music Class. Pink gown and vintage sandal. It was freaking cold and i was late for class. So, we began with O Sole Mio song and i totally captivated by songs in Am and Dm. Beautiful music and harmonic it was !

Then come the hardest part. Teacher asked me to choose either may or Nov to take examination. Because i made an important plan this november so i need to choose May, which i think i don't have enough time to settle everything. Teacher ask me to play swings and dance steps instead of the romantic melodies, that too is hard cause i am not into swings , jazz etc . For such a long time, i only play romantic, simple marching and sometimes loving waltz. Sure it made me worried sick. I am not sure either i can master all 3 pieces till May.

So, last night i fall asleep in weary. Then i received a letter together with a bunch of roses. The letter said "...Oyo, so you're finally performing piano songs which i am looking forward before. Now that i can't see you perform live, i give u this roses. I know its too much. But each time you perform, take one rose and perform beautifully. Don't take too much..." the letter was long but i can't remember the rest. And the only person who call and write ...0yo to me is dady.

This morning i was awake and i shed tears. I am looking for dady in all things but he didn't appear before me and last night he appeared in my dream. I know God told me through bible that the death won't know anything like the alive person. I know it wasn't dady but i know if dady still alive he will say such things too and even appear in the crowd to watch the perfomance. I know that God let me dreamt that dream because He knew what i need the most!

I woke up in the morning and start with the 'Sea Bird'. Still out of tempo and lack in pedaling but soon i know i'll master that. And for the swing and dance step song, it was quite nice and i only tried the treble clef. Baby step right?

Ahhhh, it feels so good to read dad's letter i am now in the mood of performing again. Well, i can't wait to see the result in May.

Thank You dear God. I know u understand me the most!!!!!!!

Day #229 : Collaboration and Judging

My piano teacher asked us (the students) to gather and learn from each other.

One of us was in grade 7.

She'll be taking her exam this November 30, 2013.

So, teacher asked her to play in front of us and judge each of the piece she played.

Well, i was judging from my point of view - i mean, the words i uttered sound like judging but actually i am not. I was telling myself about --- if i was in her place, i should improve in these aspects bla3.

It was fun.

&

I learned a lot tonight.

Thank you teacher.

Someday I'll make myself proud of the change and struggle i made.

#Thesis undone yet . I wonder when will i enjoy the no thesis moment.

XoXo

Day #221 : Dad, Someday I will Make You Proud...

Dear dad,
I've been so busy lately that i can't even have a proper time to sleep or eat.
If you're still here, i mean, you still can reply my message, you will be saying a word or sentence to help me to stand strong :)
But dad, I am strong :)

Few weeks before you went to rest for a while, you told me to take a piano class again and i am in now dad. It was my fourth lesson already and seriously the lesson getting more and more difficult. Just now i merely decide not to attend the lesson but your voice spoke loudly encouraging me to attend the class. Even i didn't perform the best performance today but i knew that i gained something important too. I know i can't really concentrate on my lesson today but i knew i have something that i never have if i didn't attend the class.

Dad,
though it's hard and it will always be hard, i will try to enjoy each lesson and bring out the best of me. Someday dad, when we meet again, i will play a lot of pieces for you. I will play along the time until you get bored and i will play a lullaby for you.

Sigh.
It's been a while and i miss you A LOT ! :(
See you soon dad and when we read this together later, we already hug each other, tightly, again. I love you dad.
O ya, your girlfriend @ mum is doing fine.

XoXo