Day #235 : Last Day In IPG

So here comes the feeling of last day in IPG.
I don't know what to express actually.
I saw my friends took pictures, taking something as 'memory', leaving something, hugging, crying etc.
But i keep silent , laying here in my precious room and bed.
What did i feel actually?
I don't know.
I met Mira - a friend i used to call 'kurus' since 5 years before and we bowed a promise to keep on our shape , or in the other word - not getting fat anymore.
People are waving goodbye(s) but i prefer to locked myself in the room.
I don't want to say goodbye. I don't want anyone notice me here and hug me or say goodbye to me.
I don't want.
I prefer to go silently without anyone notice my presence.
I even plan to hide myself / at least sleep so no one will find me and say goodbye to me...

sigh.

Lot of things happen.
This is the place i grew up.
This is the place i learned a lot - mentally, emotionally, i understood true love then i learned to let go although my heart didn't accept , i learned to smile through circumstance, i get stronger, i was betrayed, i learn to keep living in a harmony etc etc etc....

Now that i finally will leave the place that i really wanted to leave before...
People packed up their things and start moving,
I am still laying with my unpacked things.

This feeling is _)(*&^%$!@#$%^*&()

Sigh. Sigh. Sigh.
I wonder what will bring me in the future.
I wonder how tomorrow will look alike.
I wonder ...

See You All Again.
Thank You IPG Kampus Keningau for helping me to grow up A LOT. REALLY A LOT !!!!!!!

XoXo

Day #220 : Thesis

... I was in the library all day long, settling my thesis...

... In the end, i was left alone behind, all my batch-mate already get their printed thesis ready, while i am still struggling and doing my best, as best as i can, to achieve my highest might [or to satisfied one's heart?] Or maybe both ...

Just let it be :)

XoXo

Day ＃45 : Breaking my leg

I must admit that i am not that person who study real hard nor smart. I mean, i really don't study much. Well i did a little when i am in a good relationship with my man before , and i can say that he is a good motivator that everything he said will lift me up to something like studying.
So, it was a long time since we broke up, i was losing my intrinsic and i left the study thingy behind until today. Well, i don't know but i felt like reading the whole book. I mean, i enjoy studying. That was really not me. By the way, i thank God for that :-)
Perhaps, this is somehow related to the recent change in my life <3 And i love how it turn that way. XoXo
My heart still beats for Studying but i really need to sleep. Tomorrow , I'll be facing with Final Battle for this semester.
Mr. Camera