Day #151 : Come on brain, you can do this !

"Come on brain, You can do this !"

I repeatedly said that. I got MC yesterday and i supposed to do a little bit of my work or at least start typing a word ! I read a lot and found a lot of ideas but i still can't sort out the best idea of all ! Well, it might because of my severe head ache now but it supposed to covered by this bundle of work. I have another 10 days to submit my thesis. My God !

Well, blogging come to my mind when i tried my best to find a best word to start with. What to blog?

Ok, actually few months ago was quite an adventure for me and best of all was, i become a photographer ! Yay ! I mean, officially taking picture for a client wedding. That feeling of first will always be the best and i can say that it was awesome.

So, few week before the wedding, I asked Kiokie to accompany me to go but we often stumble with 'things to do' and can't decide to go together. Right on time, Abby offered to go with me with a condition 'I don't want Kiokie to go'. haha. We planned to drive from Keningau to Tuaran and the driver will be Eqo. Then it decided.

But time goes by and thing doesn't go as we planned. It end up - me driving the car to Tuaran and we drop in UA1 Bustop to fetch Kiokie. Finally the three of us head to Tang Dynasti Lodge Tuaran and have a night sleep there.

I was expecting things like 'having fun and smile all along and act as profesional as i can when the work time come'. However when it comes, i am more exhausted. I was excited at first but my chinggu was bore to death. Pity her, i can't do anything :( And i pretty understand her feeling. Been there before tough. Deep in my heart, i determined to give my best for the night time because it's her time to play around in 1B - bowling, cinema, archery etc.

But once again, it doesn't go as i planned. I can't handle my head ache and it seems bring me so slow and weak. Thank God, Kiokie was with us and he accompany her playing the archery. I rushed to the nearest toilet with my shivering leg and once again the cold and hot feeling seemed being switch on and off all over my body. Oh God, why it come in a time like this? I went to the toilet and cry, it was shameful ! really. She spent a boring day for me but i can't even accompany her even for a while. :( I am really sorry chinggu.

So we head back to find hotel in town but pity us, all hotle displayed "FULL HOUSE". So we have no choice but to go to the nearest town to find a place to stay overnight. And Thank God, Sutera Inn was available.

I can't tell every details of what happen then but it was a blast. I met my limit, i met my new ability, i increased my confidence, i learned to control my emotion and i knew with God i now can handle thing better than before, and more important, i found out what a true friendship is.

Thank God we arrived safely in Keningau although i was sleepy while i am driving back.

I got to met dad and mom in Hospital and day laughed at me because i was exhausted, just because i drove all the way to Tuaran and back to Keningau. Dad said "Biasala tu kalau belum pandai. Semua pun kau takut". yah i admit, it was my first time driving for quite a distance with a manual car. Well, i didn't take it to my heart but the laughter he gave to me. Thank you dad for letting me see the laughter again. I love you.

Hmmmm.... What will happen next? I don't know. I wonder what kind of adventure awaits ahead. I am excited !

XoXo

Mr. Camera
Here are some of the photo i loved to keep regarding to last weekend event :)

Thank you for the experience :)

Now come on brain, let's do the thesis.

I Have Something To Show You #2 : Sabbath's Voyager

Yeah, Cyeka was here.

Other than children, adults in their golden ages will capture my soul too. I used to say
'He is handsome' or 'She is pretty' when i saw an adults with fine attitude.
I admit that i rarely praise a youngster especially man with a phrase 'handsome' or 'beautiful'.
Everything matters but this point of view explain that attitude comes first.

Little Esumandaq Tindalze. She is 3 years old but she knew a lot of things!
I admit that i was admiring the way she communicate with people.
What a matured little children.
Her dad said : Her struggles is eating that watermelon with her 1 front tooth. :D

The double six monument. This monument was built for the 12 Sabah's leaders
whom has died in a plane crash. It is?
But for me, it was a sign of greed, betrayal and futile struggle. What a history ! 

Uncle Wesli family.
From right to left : Mr Wesli (dad), Mrs. Wesli (Mom), Sumandak (Daughter) and Enosh (Son).
 I admire this family. They are living a quite simple life but the love that grew in the family
was very fascinating. And if i ever get married in the future, they are one of the greatest family
i want to take as an example.

I was sitting in the stairs when i saw this 2 children playing with the small waves.
I was thrilled as i will always be when i saw children.
I know i was looking at them earnestly and began to take a lot of photo.
I know that i want to record every moves they did and i want to keep that with me.
I know that i love to see their innocent face, their sweetest smile and their purity.
Staring at them really make me say my wish or should i say a short prayer to God.
I wish you will be a wise and wonderful adults in the future.
Life was unpredictable and i know these child will go through a lot in front.
May everything they do will always stay good in Father's eyes. AMEN.

"Hey, let me take your picture" i automatically said that to her.
She was running away until i realize that i am walking at the beach and she is there
in front of me smiling timidly.
So, i don't wanna missed the opportunity and i capture her, a lot.
Look at her smile, it's bright, pure and sweet. T
hat smile remind me this :  "You're pretty tonight, Keep up that smile ya".
I don't know hows my smile effect that person until i saw this children smiling and
it does really capture my heart.
"KEEP SMILING BECAUSE YOU DON'T KNOW WHO'LL FALL IN LOVE WITH IT" - JSHR

Soon, we become friends. I know in a matter of second ,
i fall in love with them. One thing i regret was, i forgot to ask their name.
Bonjour little new friends.
Photo's snapshot : Credit to Debora

Another children that captures my heart.

I don't know why i feel sad when i look at this picture.
Could it be something or i'm just being too emotional?

Fruit ABC : Tasty ! Looking forward to make this at home soon !

So, here was the final place we visited today.
I was having a lot of fun with Debora, unc. Wesli's family and Brandon :)
Crocker Range : One of the finest place on earth .
Photo's snapshot : credit to Debora.

XoXo

Day #31 : The Fail Reformation.

Most of my friend cried angrily and disappointed today. It's all because of the Election. Well, i believe  that a lot of Malaysians support for change. But the fi-na-le was different. And because of that i can see a lot of people changing their Facebook profile photo to black, including me. Another was blaming the black out, and another was speaking about the result that comes too late this year,  Another said - RIP Democracy, another said - You won the election but you will never win our heart ! Well, a lot of thing happens and i was hoping it won't bring Malaysia back to 13 May. More important, i hope the NEW government will rule out Malaysia better than before. Whoever they are now, i mean the leader, I pray that they'll throw away the corruption and rule out everything purely and fair.

OK, speaking about today, i just realize that i am 22 years 1 Month and 1 day old. And i begin to reminisce about what have i done this 1 month. Lot of things happen. As i reread my old post, i feel proud, of everything. Well, things doesn't always good but i still found the reason to live my life and think of it as a blessings. I thank God for having my loving family, family of God and a lot of friends. 

Edny was saying this in his Facebook wall : Single doesn't mean that you're alone but it means you can face your life without depending too much on others. and he tagged me "Prisca, this suit u a lot". Yeah, i was laughing right after i read that but deep in my heart, i realize that i am beginning to stand on my own feet now. Thank God for that too :)

I am still with my photos now, reading a lot of tutorial, google-ing a lot of wonderful photos and trying to apply that on my own. I realize that there's a lot of weaknesses in my photos but Mr. Joseph (My Facebook friend), Mr. Osong, Mr. Josphat and Ms. Renee inspired me a lot. I knew Mr.Joseph from Sabah Photography page when we were discussing about his photo and he began to share a lot of things with me. He said 'try and try and try because practice make perfect'. Yes, i believe that though.

For Mr. Osong, Mr. Josphat and Ms. Renee, i saw their progress right from their beginning in Photography. And now their photos was awesome and i am honestly admiring their arts. Sometime i think that i don't have that talent to do anything like them. But, this 3 person was though and their spirit lift me up again. Thank you mister and mistress. 

So, i am about to do something to my photograph. If mine wasn't very good now, i believe some day i will be like them too :) The passion really live up my life. Thank God for providing me my baby Nikon D5000.

XoXo

Day #30 : Keeping My Mouth Shut

It was sad to realize that a single trouble can distract me from my life's intention. Day 27, 28 and 29, when i flash it back, it was a days of blessings. I wonder how i missed that moment of glory only because of a single thing. It does disturb me up until now but i shouldn't let that eat up my day. I shouldn't let it tear up the hope(s) i bring with me everyday. Yeah, it was hard to go through but i would've remember that God never let me got through something i can't hold on to! 

See, that's Friday morning, i went to IPG to attend classes but it end up with 'me going back to the room and cry' . I don't know what really hurt me. Emotionally unstable. But i do like it when i called God along the tears and i was like 'God, u see me crying and u understand the pain , also the cause of the pain which i don't understand at all. I am not sure anymore about what will happen next. everyday was a surprise to me and i seemed can't go through that anymore. But God, u did promise to us that u're near to the broken hearted and you'll come to comfort. I know i can't see u now and i can't reach ur hand but i want to feel ur hands and hug now because i really really really need You.' and i was like raising my hands and imagining Him holding it tightly  I know i won't feel the physical touch but i know He is crying with me while hugging me tightly. 

Friday evening, i was meeting up with my friends - The Ohana at the studio. I didn't concentrate with all of that, just taking picture. I was thinking about our journey to Kopungit.  Seems like something will happen and it'll effect me. And for real, it's happening. The car that we planned to go with suddenly can't go and that means, we need to go by bus. So the real problem here is, we don't have enough money and didn't planned to do so. Anyway, we resolve it quickly by telling our leader that we'll go by bus . We (Debora and I)

This is the hair that i fall in love with.

Saturday morning comes, we woke up early to prepare everything for our Church Choir visitation to Kopungit Church along with Lumat SDA Church Choir. Eyster was the person to get up, followed by pepem and mel. Debora and I, we really get scolded this morning because we wake up 15 minutes later than them. So, speaking about make-over thingy, i was planning to just let my hair hang straight but finally i curled it and i am so freaking-in-love with it. If last night i was saying to cut it, now i begin to kiss my hair :)

So the hair lift up my confidence i can say. I ain't walking with my head down anymore. And, The journey with Debora was awsome. We were sharing along the way front and back, eat a lot, travelled to Double Six and Tanjung Aru Resort and watching the sunset at Crocker Range Park before we set up to dinner and back to Church Guest Room. It was a tiring weekend but i can assure it was interesting.

Delicious Fruit ABC :)

Double six - What a history !

Credit to Brandon Choo for the shoot :)

Early Sunday, Eyster was the first awake again because she'll be one of the elector. I haven't register and i am dying to go for election. =.=

Today, i was spending my day sitting in front of my laptop, sleeping and eating all day long. I hope i can do something to the photos i took few days ago until now.

Mr. Camera

My sister - pepem with KAY uniform and me

This is our debora

So, we are eating all day long!

Debora with her bread :)

This waffle was too sweet !

The team singing You're Mine !

Lumat SDA Church Choir

My twin :)

So, they were saying that we look like twin :)

XoXo

Day #26 : Happy Labor Day

"It's holiday. Let's get a lot of sleep !"

O Yeah, i used to believe in that before but seems like i forgotten that now. Holiday means much more than that. Holiday means i got to enjoy my free time. Free time means, i need to go outdoor, hit the gym, run all day, taking photos, reading, singing, eating, playing instruments, laughing, chit-chanting ^____^ etc. I remember yesterday when i sat all the time to finalize my proposal. I don't know why and when did it turned out to be something ... errr... too long ! I never see any proposal like that. OK, frankly, i pour out 12 +++ words yesterday and it took 70 pages including the cover. WHAT? OK i know it's very very long. Maybe i was just too emotional? Because i'm doing an action research on reading? 

Well, the thing is, there's a lot of issues related to reading and almost of all the issue is , people dislike reading, which i conclude as a big issue too. Why did people dislike reading? Probably because it isn't interesting? Oh, i don't think so. I've been waiting a real time to read when i only have 30 minutes a day to read or maybe i don't have any. Oh common peeps, reading is SOMETHING big. What is the word? Something... something... i don't know. But it kinda big. It adds up a lot of JOY in your soul. Oh, you still doesn't like ... hmmm... perhaps, i should find something to change this --> to my student, later! 

OK, so today i was awake early and it's a good thing to realize that today is a holiday. I've been smiling since 3 pm yesterday just to think about today and the finished proposal. Today's 12 hour was filled with choir practice, meeting friends, playing games, playing violin, return and borrow books, bla3 and i just have 12 hour left in front for me to spend my holiday wisely ! I have those wisest thingy in my mind, just for today ! I'm going to enjoy my free time now... Time to burn the fat (s) .

p/s : I hate to realize that yesterday is the final day for me to claim my birthday gift at times bookstore :( NVM!!!!!!!! :)

Ciao !

XoXo