Final Battle

The way to fire children's enthusiasm for education is not to get them learning lists of facts, but to think like someone who learns for a living. ...but if you get them to behave like a biologist, or behave like a photographer, or a journalist, or a mathematicians, that CHANGES EVERYTHING.

A letter to a friend #1

Dear Jojo,
Happy Sabbath :) How have you been? :)
Few weeks ago, you've asked me about how was the trip to Kudat go on my side. I'm sorry i haven't get a chance to wrote it down for you. Besides all the work i need to settle, there's another obstacle like 'don't have any idea' and so.

So, here it is. I'll recite it as complete as i can :)

Few days before the trip, i have a dilemma about to go or not to go. My schedule was too packed that week even there's two big program for the weekend. But, there is one person who asked me to go, like every night. 'He-you-know-who' :) At first, i decided not to go but suddenly the night after, i was packing my things. I don't know why but i was packing.

So, i went to KK without his knowing. As long as he know, i am not going, SO i used the chance to set up a surprise for him along with Debora, Oyo and Arlyn and i have very good ally here. Things get interesting when we finally met up. Arlynn and Debora didn't stop laughing for that. Thanks to them, the surprise went well :)

So, we were departing from KK to Pinawantai around 7.30 pm . He was driving Arlynn's car, i was sitting in front and the three beautiful ladies was sitting behind. We have fun along the way to Pinawantai especially when Debora and Arlynn didn't stop singing :) What a beautiful voice they made :) oh ya, btw, Debora start losing her voice that night :( Probably because of the non stop story we tell all the way from keningau to Pinawantai.

We spent a beautiful night, eating, practicing, sleeping together (Oyo, Debora, Me and Arlynn) in a super comfy bed in Dono's house :) It was good to meet all of them and what a beautiful day it is when i add another friend in my heart :)

We were dressed in black and red that Sabbath :) I was looking forward to meet you but you didn't show up. Ahhhh Jojo . I really want to meet you , like A LOT ! :( You owe me explanation for this one :)

Singing, worshiping, laughing, eating, talking, photographing etc etc. It was fun . We went to Simpang Mengayau then spent another night in Frandy's house :)

Sunday comes and i was amazed with Kiokie's skill in futsal. I was proud back then and i keep shouting 'Go Kiokie Go!' 'Kioookieeeee' and 'sarangheyoo' :) :)

And finally , Debora and I went back to Keningau.

Above all, i was having fun and completely forget the Kursus and program here in IPG. So, that Monday morning, i was called to Jabatan to tandatangan something because i escaped :) :) But, it's ok. Rules meant to be broken though. :)

Dear Jojo,
That's all. And i hope, for the next trip, i got a chance to meet u.
XoXo

Day #206 : The End of The Beginning Night

So 5 years and a half is coming to it's end. Tonight, we were having our farewell party, as merrier as we can. The party was beautiful, not only the preparation but the peoples in it. As i began my farewell speech that night, i was talking about differences. Yes, not anyone can deny. A lot of changes have made. Personality, physical, attitude, talent etc. As i go back to 2008, and look deep especially in me, i see the old me and the now me is totally different. 

Personally, i've been through a lot. 2008 - 2009 isn't easy when i still trapped between a lot of choice. Intentionally i planned to continue to India for Medic but my parents didn't let me do so and i was regretting a lot of things back then. Now that i understand why everything happening, i am much appreciating the chance of being a teacher. Good news is i am so much in love with my career now.

Back then, i was totally blind in music. I mean, i came to IPG with an empty hands, not knowing anything. Thanks to my environment i am now improving compared to who am i 5 years ago. 

Another thing is, i was in charge for the Choir and Orchestra team for about 4 years and this thing really build up my inner self. Also, I can't forget my endless duty etc. When i go through the years, i admit, it was tiring enough for me. Surprisingly, i didn't stop. It was an endless job. One thing done, another thing appear. It was like I was doing one thing beside thinking about another thing while looking at another que up undone work. There's a time i cried and felt hopeless plus stressing out but i didn't stop. I can say i didn't give up, so i was able to stand up until now :)

It was good to say about the positive till now, but i've been through a lot of bad things too. However, i won't blame the bad because it help me to stand strong until now. Well, one thing that still stayed fresh in both of my heart and mind was my dad. He was looking forward for my ending but he was sent to rest right before i finish my campus day. I missed him a lot now but i just can't do anything about it. As i mentioned before, this world has been so much tiring for me and i believe he felt it too cause i inherited this spirit from him, i guess. Good thing dad is now sleeping and he won't feel tired anymore. I don't know how long it will be but i'm going to do my best to meet him again someday.

Another thing is love. Honestly i can't resist love. When i come to love someone, i'll stay fixed and thus love will always be the top reason of my heart broke. I decided to love someone when i enter my IPG life and already plan a future with it. But , trust didn't work out with this one. I was in love with the person for about six years with that person and a lot of things happen. Back then i don't understand even a bit of it but when i get matured i came to understand each thing happens in the past. I can't deal with the trust really so i decided to let go.

Then somebody came. It was indeed sweet. It was beautiful. I want to keep reminiscing the memories in frame of gold and planned it to continue till death do us apart but again, parents said no and we decided to let go. 23 September 2011 is painful. So much painful. But i learned how love should let go. it's been 2 years now and i grow up a lot. Although i was so down and i didn't live my life for the past two years well but now i realize that I've been more matured in handling feelings, more better than before. Seeing him smiling like that now, my heart jump . I was happy. Now i can say and understand "So, this is love is all about".

Stooopppp... It's not the end of the love story. I admit , i was eyeing someone now. It was too early to say or to decide anything but i will let God handle this one. He has given me a lot of chance but i can't handle it properly. This time, i'll let God in control :) 

Argh, i lose my memory. What did i want to write earlier? ugh, i forget. Nevermind. Above all, everything happens here was a beginning to get me ready for the next phase in life. There will be a lot of circumstance in front! Thanks to the bad and good i went through here, i'm ready to enter the next phase. 

Sigh. I've been through a lot huh *______________________________________* 

It feels good though. I feel so much thankful for now. Thank you God, for not giving up on me when a lot of things happen here. I love You.

It's 5am in the morning and it's time to wake somebody up to watch football :D and me going to sleep again. :D 

XoXo

I Have Something to Show You #3 : Celebrating Ishak+Resc Wedding

We've been working on this for almost two months. And this brought us with a new name 'Waratte Photography' . Waratte means 'smile' in Japan's Language.

Today was the end of the hard work :)

Here are some of the photos. Kindly give me advice on how these photos appear. Negative or positive, it all welcomed :D

If you need us to help you with photography, kindly contact me here : +60143598201

XoXo

Day #205 : Awesome Weekend :D

Last Friday, five of the team went to Beaufort. That were me, debora, Pinnie, Pepem and Wendy. When we decide to go to Beaufort earlier, i kinda got this tingling feeling. It was good to be home ! Ya, it's been long since i last visited them :) 

Well, lot of things happen but there are this four things i found hard to forget. First, when the bus didn't stop at the place we asked to stop earlier. we asked to stop in front of the Tokong (about 10KM before Beaufort) which will direct us to our home but the bus stop at the wrong Tokong. So we waited for Pastor to fetch us. With Pastor and Lelen, it will be seven of us inside the Getz. "Kita besesak2 saja" said Lelen. But when they arrived, Jade and Kakak Sheila were inside the car too and it will make us 9! Nah, ini kali lah! So pr asked us to come in anyway and it was funny but exhilarating. 

Secondly, i was sick the early Sabbath morning. I don't know how and when it started but it was torturing me somehow. Thinking about tomorrow will be the performance day, i need to fight against the sickness. And all i can say is, i succeed. Although my b/p show 90/60 and the doctor said 'people will faint in this state' but i survived somehow. :) Thank God.

Third, when pastor asked me to give a message for the vesper. When i asked Wendy, Debora and Lelen about the topic to share, they asked me to talk about strength, faith and hope and sure it was related to 22nd September 2013 , when dad passed away. I am not really sure about talking about that matter now. I mean, i don't know what to say. But Pastor said, 'If you are ready, then tell us about your experience' . So i was sitting and reflecting and finally come out with this 3 greatest lesson.

1. God never do something without any reason. Long before we aware of it, God prepared us to go through a hard battle. Thus, never underestimate His way.

2. To get closer to God so we can be with Him in heaven and meet all the people we once lose.

3. To get closer to God so when we pass away, people won't mourn - it all because there is a hope, i mean they see hope for us to meet again, someday soon !

Last but not least will be the performance we did in Lintasan Desoka DBKK :D Big applause to the team. We did a great great job. I was amazed with every changes in us. Everybody become matured compare to the last time . And for me, thank God, i see a big different in me about managing the team, not to scold them all the time, giving a wide way for them to be happy, controlling the feeling, respecting the young and old and appreciating the one i treasure and love the most. Thank God ! Thank you very much. Also, thank you for the talent you gave us. 

Now i was thinking, where will i take them next. Dear God, please lead us to where your talent should be :)

*Next time, i should take a lot of pictures*

XoXo